Taurus Rising

I had some fun with this.  It’s a little difficult when interpreting your own dreams (as interpreting your own readings in Tarot), because it’s hard not to be biased.  I’m going to write my interpretation in third person.

Here is what I wrote in my dream journal:

I went back to high school, but it was actually the place where I went to college.  The school was being remodeled and there was a lot of construction outside.  I had to retake the final exams.  I’m not sure why and I kept thinking, “I already graduated from high school, why do I need to take finals again?” I also kept thinking about how it was eight years after my high school graduation.  One of my friends, Brandi, was there.  There were two teachers in the room, they said that we had to either raise our hands or stand up to get our final exams.  I was getting antsy because I went through my notebook and couldn’t find a blank sheet of paper.  Later, I went to find my car… I found out that I had four cars and each were in different shades of green.

I used to have a dream dictionary book, but I have no idea where it is anymore.  So after searching around for a bit, I decided to look up some of the symbols from the Dream Moods Dream Dictionary website.  There are a few interpretations for each symbol, so I chose the one(s) that I felt best represented my current situation.

• school: going through a spiritual learning experience
• college: desire to expand knowledge and awareness; good time to try new things; stress
• construction: need to better myself
• (final) exam: fear of not meeting expectations? insecurities?
• eight: possibly insignificant, but the number eight symbolizes success and karma
• friend (Brandi): “Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned.” Brandi was one of my best friends in high school.  We were close, but the one thing that kind of held us back was that she was a very religious (spiritual) person and I was the opposite.
• teachers: seeking advice and guidance; learning by example
• notebook: This one had the most interesting interpretation.  It says that it represents the things that I have to stay on top of.  Overlooked emotions? and to “consider the contents”.
• blank sheet of paper: desire to make a fresh start in life- need to express through art or writing.  In my dream I couldn’t find a blank sheet, this could be interpreted as “overwhelming responsibilities and stress”.
• parked car(s): need to move efforts somewhere else, wasting time on a fruitless project
• four: stability, getting things done, “Earthly”… this makes me think of Taurus in astrology :)
• green: positive change, independence, healing

An Interpretation:
You’ve been wanting or feeling the need to better yourself spiritually, but there is some hesitation.  You have a fear about venturing into this area and not meeting somebody (or your) expectations.

Considering your friendship with Brandi, you noted that she was/is a very spiritual person.  What can be learned from her or your friendship with her?

The teachers in the dream can be interpreted as learning by example.  Perhaps finding a mentor or somebody more spiritually sound to seek advice from.

The notebook represents responsibilities.  You want to move into a new direction in life (spirituality), but you feel as if there is no time for it or you are too overwhelmed with the current things in your life right now (not being able to find a blank sheet of paper).

The parked cars may mean to focus your energy on other projects.  Perhaps you are putting a lot of effort into something that isn’t producing results.

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My Thoughts:
I’ve been wanting to become a more spiritual person.  I think that meditation could help, but I’ve been a little hesitant because the thought of sitting still for a long period of time and “quieting my mind” scares me.  It makes me really anxious, in fact.  I am afraid of some kind of failure, not sure.  I’m not sure what failure would mean for me or anybody else, for that matter.

I’ve always thought of Brandi as a happy person.  She’s also been very in touch with spirituality.  Brandi and I do have different beliefs.  But I think the thing to be read here is that she was always very happy and secure with her spiritual beliefs.  Maybe that’s something that I need to consider?

The notebook + cars thing makes sense to me.  I am under an incredible amount of stress (mainly due to finances!), so I’ve been focusing a lot of my energy onto that while spiritually takes a back seat.

The only things that I’m really having problems interpreting are the numbers and the colors in the dream.  What is their significance?

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Lastly, I am open to any comments or thoughts.  If you can interpret my dream in another way, I’m all ears and interested in your feedback!

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